its been a while

ever since i moved out. i havent blogged.
well thats not cool.

okay i try to live life to the fullest and i try to always think about that stupid quote, "live, love, laugh" welll how can i do any of them if i dont mean anything to you? i havent slept much for 3 days. around 6 hours for all 3 which means im around18 hours short of sleep. i dont mean to be overdramatic but if im just the accesory to you, well i dont wanna stick around walking behind and not being noticed at all. it hurts. so like jesus, i'll turn the other cheek.

i'll be waiting... i may fuck up a lot. but this time.. i cant really find anything i did.

-ed

" so hard to express this feeling, cause nobody compares to you"

i really need a new..

+ phone! >=P
+ laptop
+ camera
+ set of earphones
+ 24-hour membership

<3 Jess


P.S. ed better start blogging again..

AGGHHHHHHHHH!

i swear shes gonna drive me insane one day.

- Jess

MAN...

i efffin missss you! T.T get back already!
GAH

okay anyways
all i ever do is work work work now
i worked last friday, sunday, monday, tuesday and wednesday.
i got back from work a few minutes ago
ahahhaa man im tired.
i love it though
go to grand opening guys
im gonna be the yogurt mascot for 6 hours. and then work for 6 hours
ahahaha
:D
and i'll see sarah again(:
yayy
saturday!(:
oh ima be on the news on friday or saturday or w/e hehe(:
look for the yogurt guy!
:D

okay im tired now no work tmrw.. or today i mean
yay!
:D

fun weekend

FRIDAY: hit laguna beach with the fam for my parents 18th anniversary, just the 4 of us (: discovered the most gorgeous, perfect shore. haha the water was actually deep sea-blue, not some ugly shade of polluted gray-blue.. B-E-A-U-TIFUL. i loved exploring the tide pools (dad caught the cutest crab!) LOL then walked around the nearby shops where i found a really nice dress.. for HC, possibly? spent the rest of the day doing random things at laguna & came back for dinner at joe's crab shack. got home around 11.

YESTERDAY july 4th: beach again! with kanow, christina, & her fam+church friends. woke up at 4:30am and carpooled to newport beach. packed with people. went biking, kayaking, BBQ-ing, tanning, exploring the pier, playing in the waves.. funfunfunn! came back around 7pm? to go to kevins house, where we swam again in his pool, attempted to watch role models, and karaoked =D got home around midnight. (top of my feet are sunburned -__- lmbo)

TODAY: caught up on some much-needed sleep. costco, then tennis[= family "party" with the relatives. BBQ-ed again, watched the special hannah montana episode with the lil cousins, played group games with the adults [x .. & all the usualll stuff. got home around 11. waking up at 6:30 tmrw.. cuz the weekend is officially over. =[


<3 Jess

what

the heck are you talking about?
im fine-_-
im pretty exhausted from work
nothings making me mad or anything
dont start this up.


and jess! yes. you're here but you dont blog -_-
we gotta hang out fatty beast. :D

-ed

p.s. i got a new phone. new number.
ask me for it.

im still here!

dont miss me too much, ed. (; summer just keeps getting better & better. still wish i didnt have to get up everyday at 6:30 x_x BUT only 10 more dayss of being bored to death in health. LOL & day-off tmrw! yippeeee [= finally got a frikkin planner (already filled up..) hopefully with an organized schedule, ill feel less overwhelmed. loving tennis more & more these days.. especially practice with all the girls♥ now that we FINALLY have the official team, time to plan more bondings! did workouts today.. my so-called-abs are in Pain. with a capital P. been spending a whole lotta time with the renaissance family. our planning "parties" at kat's (err.. i mean kitty LOL) house last up to 7 hours! thinking til we're all brain dead, watching chick flicks/disney channel/mtv, me & irvin walking to carls jr cuz kitty & eric are TOO LAZY -_-, youtube vids on the TV, nonstop work on kitty's laptop, eating 24/7.. ROFL. gotta love it! our hard work seems to be paying off though [= lots more to be done.. irvin needs to get his license NOWWW. haha ANYWAYS.. tmrw: going out with the beloved fam. then july 4th: BEACHHHH either with adam+others OR christinas fam+church friends OR sis+walnut/diamond bar kids. we'll see (:

<3 Jess


ed, tomtom, chris, whale, monkey, 50 cent, fillitup (& i guess.. even jontaylor) I MISS ALL OF YOU. we need to hang out more!

TOMTOM, dont stop blogging! your posts are the only ones i actually read.

you

need to talk?
okay lets talk.




btw.. where is jess these days?
im blogging alone...

oh well!

-ed

work

well training was tiring for both days
but i got paid to eat so much yogurt
and pizza and asian buffet
thats cool
met cool people now as the redmango family.
like AJ, karis, younha, stephanie, nicole and esther. i got closer to jackie, gabe, melissa and elaine.
so theres the family. and theres Tim and Joanne.
so we had our fun at training
now we work
and i might not see some people ever
:[
oh wells.
all in all it was a.... well i dont know about much that happened but i have really good acting skills.
i pretended like i was fine

-ed

feeling..

empty. got to go phone shopping and then work.

i dont know anything thats happening anymore.

"where'd you go?"
- fort minor

well...
i guesss im off


-ed.
p.s. i have no clue what im doing half the time anymore. :T someone help!

when

love knocks you down,
just get back up when it knocks you down.


how is it that i cant get up?
somethings not right.


"love isnt measured by how many hugs and kisses you get, but the depth of each and every kiss and hug."
yeah i just thought of that quote last night while i couldnt sleep.

"with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love"
-Chris Brown

-ed.

P.S. im off everything that has to do with online things like aim or myspace.
i'll only be using this blog or email. if i am on. just tell me to gtfo. okay.