2nd post of the day

i wanted to dedicate an entire post to just my family.. thats the least i can do for them. hhaah uhmm today was an interesting day. ugh. who am i kidding.. today sucked. with a capital S. well at least now, i know what to expect.
afterschool. stayed at the track meet til i got kicked off the field by luna -.- then went to support the last tennis game of the season, like i promised(: hung out with all the JV boys, for once. (oh & tesia) they brought my mood up A LOT. thanksss[= it was fun, going back & forth from track to tennis.. listening to all the guys go on and ON about christine =__= (that one walnut slut-- uh..i mean chick) LMFAO jaykay! dont judge before you get to know. [x the guys nearly swept. goood job! im sick of chex mix now.

<3 Jess

to the family:

thanks for all the encouragement, support, & prayers. will, thanks for bringing me lunch today. i really needed it. just the fact that you stopped by made everything a whole lot better. i love my family. i really do. no matter how much i PMS. i realized today, how good i have it. & yet, so much i take for granted. we all stand behind one another through everything.. even in the midst of all the arguing. i love you guys. i dont say it enough. no other family can ever compare. thank you God. i feel so.. blessed.

<3 Jess

2012 elections tmrw

go VOTE.

<3 Jess

from a text i got today(:

When black people started wearing their pants down low, white people called it saggin. Spell saggin backwards... Sneaky white people! =D

watched untraceable last night[: got back the souplantation money today. phillips said it was "the most we've ever made" from a restaurant fundraiser(: that made my dayy. heeheh thanks again for coming out & supporting the freshies, everyone! elections thursday x_x dont forget ids. during study hall, sabbagh told me i had a B+ in burch. how did that happen?? =/ so now i have to worry about pre-cal & history.. gah. gonna go buy/read When the Emperor was Divine later. heeelllooo to extra credit! no practice the rest of this weeeeek! wooooooooooot.
happy monthiversary to ed & sarah!(=

<3 Jess

weekend fun

FRIDAY afterschool: bracelet-making-party after 6th! (no practice) LOL took down posters/flyers. then hung with kanow at her place. had some deep one-on-one talks. haha pigged out & watched the time between dog and wolf (korean drama). kanow was totally obsessing over the main character guy.. hes uh alright.. pretty cute with his chinky eyes, i guess [x ate out with her fam at souplantation. i go there wayy too often, but it was goood. i swear, they must have put something in the food cuz kanow was high like no other mother.. kinda scary..(: LMFAO got home around 9? & watched i know who killed me with tiff. really weird and freaky.. especially since my house was empty, and tiff fell asleep -_- also watched the perfect stranger. loved it, great ending. finally went to bed at like 3 am.
SATURDAY: watched knocked up. funny, pervy stuff. also saw good luck, chuck. funnny, even PERVIER. i love jess alba =D had like a 2-day movie marathon. missed kanows call, didnt go to eds =[ itsskayy.
TODAY: tennis lesson at noon. my serve has been getting A LOT better. yay. still have a long way to go. tryouts are commiinngg! gahhhh. planned on going to bonding, which i thought was at 2. cindy called & i realized it started at 11 -__- shoulda checked my email. hahaaa well too late now. darnitt. oh wells =/ started another book[= i really would love to go bike riding right now. at the beach. hahaha idk why.

havent seen a post from ed in a loonngg time..


<3 Jess

books

finally went to prc today with the officers. got our stuff done..hurrayyy! hm, ive been reading a lot lately.. & im talking about actual bookksss[= i absolutely lovee it. kanow, chris & i decided to start our own "book club". none of us like reading something assigned; kills the whole exploring the wonders of literature thing. instead, we read whatever the heckk we wantt on our own & recommend/discuss with each other. getting in touch with our inner nerd =D.. HAHAHA

JOKE (something i picked up from a book im reading):
A man asked a genie to make him a billion times smarter than any other man on earth. The genie turned him into a woman.


<3 Jess

the weathers been better.

yessterrdaay. grant surprisingly called the night before. talked for a bit.. he asked me to go to the rowland vs. walnut varsity tennis game. quite a few pple came out to support(: i didnt really get to see much of grant though, since he was a starter =/ itskayy, next time! both JV & varsity lost.. its was close.
toodaay. nothing out of the ordinary. CSTs were a bore. whatever. i really couldnt care less. weather cooled down[= & practice really wasnt half bad. nothing much on my mind besides the usual worries.. elections, senior grams, elections, pre-cal grade, & elections. x_x i feel like a loser too, thomas. but not as big of one as you are! cuz i blog every OTHER day, not EVERYday. hahaha! hm..the weathers been better, maybe things are looking up? fingers crossed.

<3 Jess

good day

first off.. thanks julie & ed for those backpack tags you made us! thanks will, tiff, eddy, and tomtom! for waking at like frikking 4.. just to help post posters/flyers(: lotss of love♥ we planned to get to school early, but uhh i guess everyone else had the same plan.. LOL oh wells. today was decent. everyone was in a good mood. posted up all my posters/flyers in time (even though most fell by the end of 7th =_=) & no hw! wooooot. best of all, tennis practice was cancelled! on second thought.. today was a GREAT day =D
AFTERSCHOOL ed & thomas ditched track and we all went to thomas' place to swim. didnt have my swim suit, so just jumped in with thomas' shirt & julies shorts [x laughed at janices diving, got bullied by taylor (tomtoms lil bro), pizza+smoothies+soda, monkey in the middle with ed & thomas, truth and dare with everyone in the jacuzzi.. funfunfun! (too bad kanow couldnt go in the pool..=/) monkey in the middle was sooo unfair.. both of them totally tackled me.. ed nearly drowned me & it was impossible to get the ball from thomas, whos super ultra buff (it was 2 on 1! -_-) afterwards, the girls raided thomas' closet & jacked all his clothes.. he has nice style! hhahah. a lil sunburn, a few scratches BUT it was worth it[= kanow & i met min[?] for the first time.. walked to his house, pretending to ask for eggs.. ROFL you guys were right though, hes pretty cute.
got home around 8ish, showered, & now im here(: completely exhausted. probably from lack of sleep & everything we did at tomtoms.. going to bed even earlier today. hope the weather cools down.

<3 Jess

thanks

for this anxiety. i guess like i said you're annoyed with me. i knew it all along(: well i'll stop being a bother.

yesterday

17 again with the fambam! =D ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ okay. ANYWHOO!.. it was huge mess at first cuz the guys refused to buy their tickets -_- got in trouble with multiple AMC workers, who wouldnt stop following us around! in the end me & tomtom paid for two tickets (but itskay cuz adam payed me back[=) afterwards, we ate and played dressed up at forever 21. the girls picked outfits for the guys to try on. i gotta admit, we have GREAT taste.. cuz they looked gooooood(: phillip & ed were a little TOO into it. ROFL started camera whoring and everythangg! heeheh adam was uhh..being his usual homo self. then we got yogurt/ice cream/food while scoping out hot guys/girls. found a group of (not-that-hot) girls and dared the guys to hit on them. ed and phil went up and gave them adams number LOLLL you know you love us adam<3 turns out they were 8th graders.. but we had a good laugh. thanks 50 cent & monkeyboy for staying with me afterwards! & of course i wasnt really gonna let you guys walk home. but sorry about getting yelled at by my aunt on the ride back.. warned you, didnt i? [x
i sleptover my cousins again. stayed up til 1 in the morning baking muffins & cupcakes. (which i am NOT sharing with eric! >=]) shoulda done hw... x_x tennis & lyds later on today. hopefully i have time to buy some sandals. sleeping early for sure today! cuz guess whaaa? break is really over. school tmrw. campaigning starts tmrw. oh joy.

<3 Jess

17 again

was actually okay. chilled with the second family. and yeah... well i got my car back and parents yelled and yelled so i wasnt feeling the greatest afterwards. i guess some people just dont understand why i might be acting different and then stupid stuff happens. im not gonna let it get to me, cause i got enough on my plate. welll i dunno what else to say.. im in debt of about 1400 and i probably cant go out or buy things for awhile so i guess that was my last outing for a while. thanks for the friends always here for me(:

to kanow: thanks bestie(: for being my support.

-Eddie

boredboredbored

still at cousins house(: my sisters friend didnt leave til like 1 in the morning yesterday.. -__- but it was whatever. hes not that bad, actually a funny guy. i was just in a pissy mood [x not his fault LOL school again in 2 days! x_x break was actually pretty decent. it was great not having to see everyone, not having to put up a fake smile everdayy (not that im unhappy or anything.) but yeah [= i was being a lazy bum this entire week! & i still have math and eng hw.. dannggg. didnt sleep til 3 yesterday. must have been that starbucks tea.. thanks again adam for falling asleep on me..! he knocked out at like 2 -.- weaksauce haha itsskayy though. you make weird/funny noises when you sleep. it was uh interesting. movies with the fambam later.. =D

<3 Jess

cousins house!

spending the night here today. my sisters friends came over.. they were fun to hang with. but only one of them is still here. and he is annoying as fuck. i REALLY wish i had something to throw at his face right now -.- GAWDDD. why does she only hang with under-classmen anyway?? ugh whateverrr. ill blockle my frustration out. hahaa
aw. breaks nearly over. =[ 17 again tmrw, zac efron!♥ heeheh(:

<3 Jess

need a laugh?

AHAHHAHAHA! sorry for the nightmares everybody. i just HAD to share that with the world.. =D ily henry! btw, that counts as joke of the day. probably the funniest joke ive posted so farr.

<3 jess

waiting

..for my ride. going to prc today with freshmen officers. & i felt like blogging[=
spring breaks been.. okay, i guess. idk. maybe its just my mood. lol i feel like im even more stressed during break than i was before -.- ommggggg ! asb elections are coming up. i wont lie. im scared/freaked out/nervous.. hhahaa hope for the best?
guess whatt!? i actually stuck to my promise. ive been waking up at 6 everyday to go jogging at the park =D it feels really goooodd! except that my entire body is sore like no other mother. but thats only cuz i havent really ran in MONTHS. i better have lost weight from thiss.. i plan to make the jogging thing routine(:
DUDEEE.. i miss my second fam! =[ havent really hung out with everyone since break started.. what happened to fast & furious guys?? ROFL well thats kinda my fault too.. im lazyyy to the max and after running in the morning, i dont feel like doing much anymore.. hahaa plus im kinda sick of the movies.

got back from prc.. its closed during spring break -_- we went for nothing! whatta time-waster..lmao we fail, guyss.

<3 jess

...

eff. situations ALWAYS suck for me. one way or another.

truth time.

alright time to let it out.

guys, im moving. i have no clue where or when
but i am soon
parents are nagging
and life at home sucks to the point that i'd rather not come home.
yeah life keeps getting in the way.
but w/e
i'll be gone soon
and out of here too
i'm numb.
eff...

-Eddie...

i miss

her. spring break is offf to ssuch a great start =_______=


this goes out to adam...
hope it went welll.

i really really miss you sarah! T.T

-Eddie

FINALLY

..spring break is hereee! first off, THANKS to everyone who came out to souplan on thursday! there was a whole mess of pple there.. seemed like all of RHS showed up.. hahaha anywhoo, heres how my weekend went...
FRIDAY: didnt end up doing anything with the second fam. so me & whale hung at her place. we ate our hearts out..heeheh[x pizza + bagels & sour cream + DIET pepsi + OJ! + fresh homemade pancake-sized cookies + ice cream + pizookies(: = YUM. watched dramas together, but then i had to go dress shopping with my sis for grandpas birthday celebration the next day.
SATURDAY: grandpas 90th birthday bash! of course the entire family was there. we all got dressed up, did hair & makeup, and took professional family portraits. sooo CHAOTIC. took hundreds of shots.. diff poses.. diff backgrounds.. spent 3 hours at the studio.. but i had fun[= the guy working the lights was pretty cute. will agrees. hahah! went out in our nice clothes for dinner, then cousins house for the "after-party"=D
TODAY: watched monsters vs. aliens 3D (stupid. but funny..) & adventureland (depressing, but realistic. good movie!) thanks will. left the movies around 10. when we turned out of the parking lot, we drove onto this dark, empty street. this woman (nia) was getting mugged.. she was being dragged to the middle of the road. the guy runs off when our headlights hit him.. we got out, called the cops, and stayed with nia (she was bawling & completely freaked out) thankfully, she wasnt hurt. lucky that we drove by.. later, 5 police cars, the mall security, and nia's family all pulled up. we stayed until everything was sorted out. since we were witnesses, we talked to the cops, gave them a description of the suspect...etc., etc. CUH-RAZY night.
OH also.. HAPPY BELATED! to adam, matsuki, and joey [?]
sorry i couldnt hang with you guys yesterday adam! =/ i owe you cupcakes<3 sorry i couldnt go to beach either, jenn..
tmrw morning, i plan to wake up around 6 to go jogging. im gonna lose AT LEAST 10 pounds by the end of break. serious this time! just watch.


EASTER JOKES :D
What do you call a bunny with fleas?
BUGS bunny!

How are rabbits like calculators?
They both multiply VERY FAST.

How can you tell which rabbit is the oldest among the group?
look for the gray hares.


<3 Jess

backstab.

how long was this going on guys? how come i was just the brainless dumb stupid guinea pig?
trust is very hard with me now.
so i may not tell people things now.
haha.

-Eddie

just for you, phillip(:

heres a super short post. for phillips sake. hahhaa today was uhh.. fun. MOTORBOAT! =D ROFL my friends are such pervs.

<3 jess

souplantation

made me STUFFED. ughh, i ate wayy too much.. hahaa stomachache =[ hung out at lyds house with LJN2 afterschool.. pigged out & totally did not do our work. LOL then went with the fam & lydia to souplan. saw a whole bunch of pple there..lol its was fun catching up, lyd(: i sure do share a whole lot with that girlie.. even the smallest, most insignificant details about my life! heeheh ♥ going AGAIN tmrw with the second family & best buddy friends (after track meet). grab a flyer, come out & support RHS!
i didnt read blogs yesterday.. & whoa. i missed a lot. you guys all need to just CALM DOWN. take a frikkin chill pill! all of you are making the sitch 1000x worse than it really is -.- dont believe everything you hear. words get twisted unintentionally as gossip spreads. its a lil something called TRUST. as for me, this isnt my fight. ill leave it alone. i do not want to be involved.



JOKE OF THE DAY is backkk! (this ones from kanow)

What kind of mouse walks on two legs?
Mickey Mouse.

What kind of duck walks on two legs?
Donald Duck..?

nooo...ALL DUCKS WALK ON TWO LEGS, stupidddd! =D



<3 jess

cry me a river.

mmhm.

one thing, ima say.
get your facts straight.
if you hear from others then you obviously dont have the time to hear from me.
thats all.

-Eddie.

the notebook

the other night, i had this sudden impulse to re-watch the notebook on my own. it was really strange, but i just couldnt wait. i guess i was in the mood for tears.. to let it all out. (cuz i know i cry everytime i watch it) i decided to push aside everything else.. & really get into the movie. i only watched about half and ended up finishing it just now. ohh mann, maybe i was TOO into it. cuz even though its my 4738193 time watching it.. the tears wouldnt stop! to be honest, i wasnt even just tearing.. it was like bawling out loud. my dad comes by to see whats wrong.. & he LAUGHS =__= being the typical insensitive guy he is.. he couldnt comprehend how its possible for someone to cry over a made-up sappy love story.. LOL.. he calls my mom over & she thinks im pretty ridiculous too -______- i felt soo pathetic cuz the tears were still pouring. i was crying, laughing at myself, and yelling at them.. all at once. what can i say? im a sucker for chick flicks.. LMFAOO but boyy, i feel loads better (despite the headache & puffy eyes) i discovered exactly how to cheer myself up[= someone buy me the DVD!


<3 jess

for the record.. crying during movies is perfectly NORMAL

why

not, take a crazy chance, why not do a crazy dance?

trust.

learn to accept it.

it'll come.

i love you guys though.

=]

-Eddie

stolen from mariels blog

i really just cant sleep atm.. its literally what ive been doing the entire weekend. now im soo awake! so heres my second blog of the day![:

TEN HOW'S:
How did you get one of your scars?
i went rollerskating (the old-school kind with 4 wheels) with some of the neighborhood kids. i was retarded and tripped on a crack.. x_x

How did you spend your last Birthday?
i was SUPPOSED to go to dland.. but stupid rainn!

How are you feeling at this moment?
sore but energized [=

How did your night go last night?
tossed & turned all night..

How did you do in high school?
im off to an okay start, i guess

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
old shirt from aero

How often do you see your best friend?
my best best friend? uhh.. its been way too long. she goes to walnut

How much money did you spend last month?
more than i could afford. now im a broke foool!

How old do you want to be when you get married?
26-28ish

How old will you be at your next birthday?
sweet 16!

NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Paola

What did you do last weekend?
hmm..i really dont remember o_o
ill look back at my blog later..

What is the most important part of your life?
the people in it

What would you rather be doing?
starting spring break

What did you last cry over?
argument with the parentals

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
talking to someone.. like will[:

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
i have an entire listtt..
they have to get along with my family

What are you worried about?
everything thats to come.

What did you have for breakfast?
haha special k cereal

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
ehhh..

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
not really

Have you ever been out of the country?
of course

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yessir. on the daily.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
=/ well i try not to hold grudges

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
noo

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
mhmm!

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
cousinss<33

Who was the last person you texted?
my coach.. LOL

Who was the last person you hungout with?
michael, jon, will, tiff

Who was the last person to call you?
3-way with chris & kanow.
then my service died..

Who did you last hug?
michael, jon, will

Who is the last person who texted you?
coach & kelley i think

Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
will? ROFL

SIX WHERE’S:
Where does your best friend live?
most of them in rowland

Where did you last go?
out for dinner and yogurt

Where did you last hang out?
that one yogurt place..whimsical

Where do you go to school?
RHS

Where is your favorite place to be?
all that matters is who im with

Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
cant say i do

Do you think anyone likes you?
no ideaaa

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
at times

Do you know the muffin man?
heeeheh. i have a friend who has a friend whos friends with the muffin man

Does the future scare you?
hell yes

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
cuz theyre like family

Why did you get a myspace?
dont remember. it was like back in 6th grade

Why did your parents give you the name middle you have?
cuz its my chinese name?

Why are you doing this survey?
i really dont wanna go to bed

THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
EDWARD CULLENS POWER ♥

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
nah. everything happens for a reason

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
someone to keep me company(:

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
...

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
depends who..
HAHA jkjk
only if it was life or death [=

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
im not UNhappy


<3 jess

serious =]

yeah its serious(: i appreciate the friends for the advice and i know what im doing, im sorry my emotions are in a constant flux but i know that i can deal with these things and know what to do. I am sleep deprived but you know what? im happy(; havent done much today but its fine i think just sitting on this chair makes me happy! haha this is gonna go out to all the friends that are down or just not feeling it. i know i havent been much support since you guys are constantly worrying about me, so its my turn right? =] okay

_____, you look quite down.
With your big fat eyes, and your big fat frown.
The world doesn’t have to be so grey!

_____, when you’re life’s a mess,
When you’re feeling blue, always in distress,
I know what can wash that sad away.
All you have to do is;

Put a banana in you’re ear!
(A banana in my ear?)
Put a ripe banana right into your favourite ear.
It’s true (says who?) So true.
Once it’s in your gloom will disappear.
The bad in the world is hard to hear,
When in your ear a banana cheers,
So go and put a banana in your ear!

Put a banana in your ear!
(I’d rather keep my ear clear.)
You will never be happy if you live your life in fear.
It’s true (says you.) so true,
When it’s in the skies are bright and clear.
Oh every day of every year,
The sun shines bright on this big blue sphere,
So go and put a banana in your ear!

just put your own name in the blank(:

-Eddie

boorreedd

dannngit! i coulda gone to world of dance yesterday.. but i was stupid and decided to skip outt >=[ my sis went and came home super late with these posters and really cool tshirts! (she only got me a poster.. no tshirt -_-) then today i found out erin was there.. & how she went backstage and met quest crew! goshh i hatee them.. GAH i shoulda went.

a piece of advice my friend always gives me.. now im passing it down to someone else:
dont let mere infatuation take over your actions & emotions. be smart. you know who you are. i tell you this cuz i care, cuz i worry. if it were me, i trust that youd be telling me the same. just know what youre doing. no regrets, right? its great to see you cheerful again(: but i just wish your mood wouldnt revolve around the relationship so much.. haha im glad you arent afraid to confide in me. youre secrets are safe, whatever you tell me will stay on the deelow[=

man.. i havent been to church in the longest time. i miss it. i need it. sucks cuz it wasnt even my decision to stop going in the first place.


<3 jesslee

sadies

i didnt know the meaning of sore til this morning. x_x
FRIDAY no tennis practice, so got off after 6th period. worked asb snack window.. then will took me, kanow, chris, & jliu to kanows house. he had to drive to my house.. then back to school (chris forgot her id -_-) then to kanows house.. dude, you know i love you![= anyways.. kanows mom (who goes to beauty school for skin care stuff) had some of her pro hair/makeup stylist friends come over to help us get ready. there were 3 girls & this one gay guy [: truong came a bit later. everything took much longer than we planned.. didnt get done til like 6:30ish. -_- thomas & jules met up with us, then phillip drove everyone (minus truong, who left with her date) to adams. when we got there, the mood was sooo DEAD. idk what exactly happened but we missed a lot.. the original plan was to go to guppies or watch fast & furious 4. but that did not happen =[ cuz we were running so late. in the end, i called up will & we went to dolphin LOL we fail at plannnnnninggg! so we get to sadies.. & i really was not in the mood -.- BUT after everyone finally started to dance (kanow included =D) it was FUN. there really was no point for the hair/makeup cuz everything probably melted off along with all the sweat hahah! laterrr, i called up will once again.. and he drove me homee[= uhmm, ill post up sadies pictures some other time.. when im not feeling so exhausted (read the others' blogs for more details about sadies)
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU to williammm! ♥ not just for being my chauffeur all the time. but for being there when i was crying my eyes out on the phone.. asking to talk & help figure things out. its great cuz i have no doubt that youll always be someone i can call anytime, anywhere. godd, I LOVE YOU you really are the brother tiff & i never had. and thanks for lending your camera. oh BTW, all my "lil friends" think youre hella cute [x youre now known as my "hot cousin" ROFL

TODAY woke up ridiculously sore & tired. spent the majority of my day sleeping & hanging out with my fam. sorry i couldnt play tennis thomas! xP my legs so cannot take that right now.. lmao


<3 jess

fill up.

Dedication to Phillip Luu.



yeah i feel better now. these days have sucked a shit load for me. but theres ALWAYS that one person that no matter how much i say im ok he'll slap the bs outta me. phillip, im just gonna thank you for everytime you're there for me, you are that person that'll be there with me when we're old and playing chess in the park. You know that fershure w/e you need i'll try w/e i can do get to you and help you. You defy logic as a best friend and ima thank you cause no ones advice is better than yours. no matter how much i say no homo to everything, its always homo cause we have a good time with it. i can do anything around you and you're always down to do whatever to cheer me up. and this post was just to you.


-Eddie

sick.

and effin tired. you know what, im freaking tired of this bullshit. if its always gonna be like this then i cant take it anymore. I've made my excuses for you but its too much. its always the same right? one gets mad and the other is just dead for the rest of the time. You dont even know the pain i have to deal with at the moment and you're not helping. so im done trying, i dont know what i did wrong but eff it. i dont care. have a good night.

-Eddie

P.S. thanks to people like phillip, kanow, jess, christina, kat, etc. you guys bring out a better side of me.




add-on cause im so bored. my life seems like some kinda horror movie to me, just no frankenstein or no monsters. every little thing that happens is just scaring me in a way. every little thing i find out, just hurts me more and more. haha.. i need to go to church more often, i havent gone in a long time and my life is a mess. im starting to notice that i blow off my friends a lot and putting up this fake front is soo tiring. im messsed up, i know it, you know it. i just wanna runaway and not look back and not feel anything. sorry for this emo post but i dont know why im not getting over this kind of thing. sigh*

happy april!

like everyone else, im beyond glad that march is over and DONE with. first day of april today(: it was a decent day.. not off to a bad start, thank godd! best prank has to be the one we pulled on sabbagh during tennis practice [x LOL did a lot of late minute shopping, didnt get home til like 10 x_x its been a busy week.
whoa. sadies in 2 days. still trying to figure out what exactly imma wear.. tshirts look way cool. too bad theo still hasnt seen them.. hahaa

<3 jess