YOWJIECHOI!

didnt want to blog about this. but i dont want to have to explain this a bajillion times either.
so today i left school during second period cuz something was wrong with my dog, bella. at first, we didnt think it was a big deal. ended up going to two different hospitals. bella had a tumor which spread up to her lungs. by then she had to breathe through an oxygen mask & was in "critical condition". the vet took xrays, emergency exams, etc. etc. he told us "the most reasonable" solution was to put bella to sleep. we were all shocked cuz bella never showed any symptoms or anything. she was always active, healthy... or so we thought. the vet says its possible that she was "suffering in silence". it was the worst decision the four of us ever had to make. none of us could watch.
ever seen marley & me? yeah. now i hate that movie.
i feel like i didnt do enough. maybe i shoulda taken her on more walks.. given her more baths.. idk. i know bella is "just a dog".. but still. it hurt. & it scared me. i guess you really dont know what youve got until its gone.
called teresa while she was at school. the news ruined her day too. her, bella & i had some crazy times♥ we talked during her entire lunch break & for 3 more hours afterschool.. she got me to laugh & feel MUCH better. promised to come over later.
so much can change in so little time.