O_O

i blogged. hehe

-ed

its been a while

ever since i moved out. i havent blogged.
well thats not cool.

okay i try to live life to the fullest and i try to always think about that stupid quote, "live, love, laugh" welll how can i do any of them if i dont mean anything to you? i havent slept much for 3 days. around 6 hours for all 3 which means im around18 hours short of sleep. i dont mean to be overdramatic but if im just the accesory to you, well i dont wanna stick around walking behind and not being noticed at all. it hurts. so like jesus, i'll turn the other cheek.

i'll be waiting... i may fuck up a lot. but this time.. i cant really find anything i did.

-ed

" so hard to express this feeling, cause nobody compares to you"

i really need a new..

+ phone! >=P
+ laptop
+ camera
+ set of earphones
+ 24-hour membership

<3 Jess


P.S. ed better start blogging again..

AGGHHHHHHHHH!

i swear shes gonna drive me insane one day.

- Jess

MAN...

i efffin missss you! T.T get back already!
GAH

okay anyways
all i ever do is work work work now
i worked last friday, sunday, monday, tuesday and wednesday.
i got back from work a few minutes ago
ahahhaa man im tired.
i love it though
go to grand opening guys
im gonna be the yogurt mascot for 6 hours. and then work for 6 hours
ahahaha
:D
and i'll see sarah again(:
yayy
saturday!(:
oh ima be on the news on friday or saturday or w/e hehe(:
look for the yogurt guy!
:D

okay im tired now no work tmrw.. or today i mean
yay!
:D

fun weekend

FRIDAY: hit laguna beach with the fam for my parents 18th anniversary, just the 4 of us (: discovered the most gorgeous, perfect shore. haha the water was actually deep sea-blue, not some ugly shade of polluted gray-blue.. B-E-A-U-TIFUL. i loved exploring the tide pools (dad caught the cutest crab!) LOL then walked around the nearby shops where i found a really nice dress.. for HC, possibly? spent the rest of the day doing random things at laguna & came back for dinner at joe's crab shack. got home around 11.

YESTERDAY july 4th: beach again! with kanow, christina, & her fam+church friends. woke up at 4:30am and carpooled to newport beach. packed with people. went biking, kayaking, BBQ-ing, tanning, exploring the pier, playing in the waves.. funfunfunn! came back around 7pm? to go to kevins house, where we swam again in his pool, attempted to watch role models, and karaoked =D got home around midnight. (top of my feet are sunburned -__- lmbo)

TODAY: caught up on some much-needed sleep. costco, then tennis[= family "party" with the relatives. BBQ-ed again, watched the special hannah montana episode with the lil cousins, played group games with the adults [x .. & all the usualll stuff. got home around 11. waking up at 6:30 tmrw.. cuz the weekend is officially over. =[


<3 Jess

what

the heck are you talking about?
im fine-_-
im pretty exhausted from work
nothings making me mad or anything
dont start this up.


and jess! yes. you're here but you dont blog -_-
we gotta hang out fatty beast. :D

-ed

p.s. i got a new phone. new number.
ask me for it.

im still here!

dont miss me too much, ed. (; summer just keeps getting better & better. still wish i didnt have to get up everyday at 6:30 x_x BUT only 10 more dayss of being bored to death in health. LOL & day-off tmrw! yippeeee [= finally got a frikkin planner (already filled up..) hopefully with an organized schedule, ill feel less overwhelmed. loving tennis more & more these days.. especially practice with all the girls♥ now that we FINALLY have the official team, time to plan more bondings! did workouts today.. my so-called-abs are in Pain. with a capital P. been spending a whole lotta time with the renaissance family. our planning "parties" at kat's (err.. i mean kitty LOL) house last up to 7 hours! thinking til we're all brain dead, watching chick flicks/disney channel/mtv, me & irvin walking to carls jr cuz kitty & eric are TOO LAZY -_-, youtube vids on the TV, nonstop work on kitty's laptop, eating 24/7.. ROFL. gotta love it! our hard work seems to be paying off though [= lots more to be done.. irvin needs to get his license NOWWW. haha ANYWAYS.. tmrw: going out with the beloved fam. then july 4th: BEACHHHH either with adam+others OR christinas fam+church friends OR sis+walnut/diamond bar kids. we'll see (:

<3 Jess


ed, tomtom, chris, whale, monkey, 50 cent, fillitup (& i guess.. even jontaylor) I MISS ALL OF YOU. we need to hang out more!

TOMTOM, dont stop blogging! your posts are the only ones i actually read.

you

need to talk?
okay lets talk.




btw.. where is jess these days?
im blogging alone...

oh well!

-ed

work

well training was tiring for both days
but i got paid to eat so much yogurt
and pizza and asian buffet
thats cool
met cool people now as the redmango family.
like AJ, karis, younha, stephanie, nicole and esther. i got closer to jackie, gabe, melissa and elaine.
so theres the family. and theres Tim and Joanne.
so we had our fun at training
now we work
and i might not see some people ever
:[
oh wells.
all in all it was a.... well i dont know about much that happened but i have really good acting skills.
i pretended like i was fine

-ed

feeling..

empty. got to go phone shopping and then work.

i dont know anything thats happening anymore.

"where'd you go?"
- fort minor

well...
i guesss im off


-ed.
p.s. i have no clue what im doing half the time anymore. :T someone help!

when

love knocks you down,
just get back up when it knocks you down.


how is it that i cant get up?
somethings not right.


"love isnt measured by how many hugs and kisses you get, but the depth of each and every kiss and hug."
yeah i just thought of that quote last night while i couldnt sleep.

"with every kiss and every hug, you make me fall in love"
-Chris Brown

-ed.

P.S. im off everything that has to do with online things like aim or myspace.
i'll only be using this blog or email. if i am on. just tell me to gtfo. okay.

okayy..

so first day of work. tiring. but worth it i guess.

mmhm


how is it that someones mood can die soo damn fast
ugh.

-ed

thomas

i aint making fun of you guys, i like putting up pictures
they add spice to this blog :D


ANYWAYS
today has to be the most boring day ever.
yesterday just flat out sucked.
and tmrw i start work so yep
im goood.
yeah im really bored... someone plan something unlike adam :[
he fails!
so i'll plan a beach trip later
cause apparently lots of people dont have the right funds to do it
and i know how to plan better now (:

3 day trip.

uhhh it was a nice place.
i just swam and tanned..
thomas came on saturday and we slept in the tent
and before a flock of white people came to us on the swings
and made fun of our dog and cause we're asian
i was seriously gonna slap the girls who kept calling taylor(thomas's bro) ching chong or something. then some stupid boys came and i looked at them and thought "they're so dumb, these super scrawny trailer park kids wanna get fucked up?" but me and thomas kept our cool and just left it.. well I WANTTEED to go back and show them... but thomas said it wasnt worth it and it wouldnt be fun w/o thomas :[ well those stupid white kids .... if i go back i seriously willl bitch slap every girl and beat the F@#$ outta the guys. and besides that..
nothing much happened. pretty bored... i think i watched a gazillion episodes of CSI: Miami and law and order... learned a lot from those!
yep.
thats bout it...

-Ed

=D

MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie. MUST-watch movie.
totally worth the wait



MJ!

since

i piss you off so much
you'll have a great weekend while im gone.

have fun.

argh.

going on a trip for the weekend -_-
thomas is gonna be there
but he'll be all over julie anyways -_-
once again i'll be alone! :[


this is how its gonna be! VV

im soo..

tired these days, and you have a sleep disorder....
i wish we could have some time to ourselves at night :D
oh wells

today(: i'll seee you after i make you ditch tennis(;
and since ima be on a trip this weekend...


HAPPY EARLY 3 MONTH BABE(:
gawd i love you(:




-ED

woohooo!

its official. JV TENNIS CAPTAIN! hahah im hella excited for the 12 of us =D & congrats to ed, who finally got a job! now youll actually have $$ when we go out. thank gawd, tryouts are FINALLY overrr; ill probably still be in pain for the rest of the week.. BUT yay! tennis bonding tmrw at schabarum park. then FRIDAY, no practice[= & ASB bonding, again at schabarum park. FAILED to watch transformers 2 yesterday.. sold-out tickets. plus i totally forgot that i was "grounded" til thursday.. rescheduled for friday night [: & hopefully, beach on july 4th? haha lots to look forward to.

<3 Jess

YAY

I GOT THE JOB! whoohoo!
so happy(:
anyone want to go out
its my treat now.
hit me up.
well... dont get me broke before i start working... -_-

<3 ED

thanks phil!

WhatTheHeckk??

did you do to our blog, ed! =O no more changes without consulting me first -.- thats one scary picture of thomas..LOL & what are you talking about? i DO blog! unlike the whale, i actually care about our blog [: hahaa ANYHOO. i think im finally getting better. victoria/irene gave me one HELL of a cold. duuuuddee, i thought i had swine flu or something! especially when the fever started. gahhhhhh. well, summers been surprisingly busy x_x its okay, ill learn to deal. beyond sore from tennis.. but ill survive cuz im as strong as a soldier(: uh...OHH! TRANSFORMERS 2 is out!! gonna hit the midnight show tonight =D renaissnace presentation + ASB mtg tmrw.. we got the theme down for welcome back assembly! wooooottwooot. TOP SECRET stuff, yo (yesterday: met with all renaissance commissioners at teabar, then dinner together at Lee's) im excited for the 4 of us. well i should shower.. i smell like the guys locker room. gag. man, my posts are getting shorter then eds =P

<3 Jess


P.S. i added my twitter updates below the "About Me" section [= JOIN TWITTER & i want a new webcam.

FML.

i dont think ima make it! gahh just tell me the results :[
T.T

interview.

so today was my 2nd interview at redmango after making the cut.

there was 11 people at the interview i had and it had to be one of the weirdest interviews.
so lets seee.
the rowland people there were
gabe cuevas
jacqueline sun
elaine taing
cindy feng
eric sung and
ian hernandez.

the people i met were
esther, goes to sunny hills
AJ, alyssa's cousin that goes to PCC
jericka?
clarisse?
well
i dont really remember but it was fun
played some memorizing game with dominoes
uhhh my team lost :[
welll i hope i get the job
i'll post results later O_O

-ED

the recap! (:

YAYYY JESS BLOGGED! IM NOT ALONE ANYMORE(:
anyways...
heres a recap since...
monday of last week.

-monday: job hunting, surprise visit to sarah at tennis, watched UP with sarah, david, lily, thomas, julie and voldemort.
-tuesday: nothing but a surprise visit to sarah at tennis. saw beast and whale. sarah bagged on me for coming so i left. again(:
-wednesday: had an interview at redmango, prettty chill(: went to sarah again at tennis with candy, got blown off, argument and make up and found out a certain fat beyotch is not trustworthy.
-thursday: waited effin 2 hours for an interview at Sears so i just left, took sarah home and introduced her to my mom's friend.
-friday: phil and david came over, went to pick up ray, went to phil's and david's, their dad took me out to ramen :D, phil came over and watched juno and talked till 11.
-saturday: went to grandma's for father's day, came home, got the black car fixed, washed it and julie took it out >:O so i took the white car went out with sarah to the mall, target, speedzone and cue.
-sunday: cousins and other grandparents came over had a grad/father's day party.

thats about it.
i'd post pictures but i gotta life ya know! (:
today is oddly
boring.
the highlight of my day, taking and picking up janice and grace from school -___-

wellll i misss a lot of people now that theres no school T.T
people! come visit me! or make a beach day or something cause according to people (phil) i suck at planning :[

blog some more jess!
- EDDIE

summerrr

its been way too long since i last blogged.. haaha heres whats been going on:
+ graduation was fun!
+ so was ASB beach bonding(:
+ the hangover is hella funny
+ up is sucha cute movie.
+ new froyo addiction
+ omgpop (aka iminlikewithyou) is fun while talking on webcams [x
+ tennis tryouts/practice went.. pretty well
+ no longer fresh meat! helllloooo suffermore year..
+ health class from 7-10 in the morning is a killerrr
+ finally updated myspace
+ y'all should join twitter! =D
+ irene/victoria got me sick. boooo to sore throats >=P

RHS 2009 Graduation pics
the seniors i'll miss the most:

& of course RAY! stupid fool is moving..
BestBioBuddies♥

pictures make posts so much more interesting, dontcha think? [: renaissance mtg at puente's food court later on today.. excited to start planning!


<3 Jess

P.S. no one (except tomtom) blogs anymore.. sigh =/

summertime is finally here.

things to do:

• double date with david luu!
• work!!!!
• sarah time!
• beachhh
• disneyland!
• late night chats(:
• movies.
• second fam reunion
• another camp trip with t kang and p luu
• knotts
• move out with jon and eric and jerbear.
• fun at adam's like always.
• sneak out with sarah late at night(;
• try to work out?
• maybe run CC with them.
• maybe hurdle practice for fun.
• get 24 fitness pass..
• go to CZC at least one more time.
• prank call kat some more. ( she still doesnt know it was phil and me... what an idiot!)
• have hangouts with c/o 09 peeps
  
• hangouts with c/o '10 peeps
• hangouts with c/o '11 peeps
• freshmen suck.
• GNO guys night out.
• top of the world with sarah.
  

3 more days.

i promised thomas i would start blogging again.. & i meant it.
graduation is such a bittersweet thing. today, school felt empty & lifeless (especially without the homo walking the whale & me to first.. & not seeing him waiting at my opened locker after 4th..) BUT during 5th, while asb was passing out caps & gowns, we saw all the seniors again! dude, why cant you guys leave already!? we cant miss you if you're all still here.. hahahaaa! [x jk.
anyWHOOO. i was just reading all of thomas' blogs over the past week, and awwwwww.. are you trying to make us all cry, tomtom?? but hes right, we need a 2nd family reunion. you know what though? even if we dont hang as often as we used to, i can honestly say that i still feel as close to every single one of you as i did before (if not closer). i can still yell at adam for no reason, pretend to laugh at erics jokes, find new insults with ed about the whale's blubber, have a good time doing absolutely nothing with thomas, go on a girls' night out with chris & kanow, and have phillip hold my books on the way to practice♥ i dont have doubts that our bonds will last a year, or even 5 years, from now. because you dont question true friendship.
aghhhhh! pre-cal final tmrw.. if i get AT LEAST a 75 out of 80, ill have an A- in the class ! =D but that means the most i can get is 2 questions wrong.. if you didnt already know, thats pretty impossible for me. =/ well i scored a 57 out of 60 on my last chapter 10 exam! 3rd highest of the classs, babyy! wooooooott wooot. i must say im pretty proud(: especially since just a few weeks ago, i scored second to lowest on a previous exam.
fingers crossed for tmrw..

<3 Jess

WERE done..

seniors!
we're done
that sucks.
i dunno why you guys wanna leave so much.
i enjoyed high school.
i'm gonna miss it soooo much
:[

bad day post (again)

as you know i probably only post on bad days. oh weellsss.

so yesterday after one of the best days i've had in a while... i suddenly had that urge to be nosy. checked myspace and saw some things i did not want to see... it surprised me. am i not that good enough? do you want more? what else can i do? -__- that kinda ruined my day today and i just didnt feel that great in any class. also, i get called up by the fucking bitchy attendance lady and she calls my mom saying i ditched because she didnt wanna just give me the effin detention. ahh w/e... at the moment i love jon taylor. he saved my ass (just a bit) but nevertheless. love you jon. after i get called up i was pissed and ended up losing the first game of the volleyball tournament -___- sorry guys. well after that i went right home got my ass handed to me by my oh so not loving mother and i cleaned my room a bit and now im blogging. what the fuck kind of day is this?! AND theres rumors going around about me too and i hear about it from a girl i just met today -__- sooo
thats whats in my mind. payce.

-ED.

hmm...

i hate this part right here.

same ol' same ol'
yep.

-ed.

really now?

why do you guys do that all the time?

just stop.

and you may not even know im talking about you two

but cut it out.

-ED

lazylazylazy

im too lazy to write out my usual long post.. [x
sooo. memorial weekend was hella fun. spent all 3 days out past 1.. catching up with some walnut friends. havent seen them in forever! but nothings changed much, so hurray(: met quite a few new pple. celebrated tiffs 17th♥ so much for work before play.. hahah!
OH go watch star trek! Jim Kirk was cuteee.
dont watch angels&demons.. sucked asss. read the booookkk! 140348 times better.. [:
kanow, thomas, christina: sorry i ditched you guys! i know you missed me. heeheh(:

<3 Jess


p.s. new rule: AT LEAST one post per week from now on, ed!

get a damn life.

why do people always get into other peoples business? its like they have nothing special about their own life that they automatically feel important knowing or spreading stupid shit about people. im not directing this at anyone ( cause i might not even know who im talking too) but this kinda gets on my nerves. When people tell others shit, its cause they have nothing to talk about and cause their pathetic lives arent even intertwined with anyone elses. im directing this one out to a friend,

yeah i know people are spreading rumors.
tell them stfu
keep your head up high
and wait. when i find that person,
they will be sorry they talked.
no joke they will.

this one goes kinda to myself...
shaddup.
:D

-ED.

ps. i miss our posts jess!

didnt want to blog about this. but i dont want to have to explain this a bajillion times either.
so today i left school during second period cuz something was wrong with my dog, bella. at first, we didnt think it was a big deal. ended up going to two different hospitals. bella had a tumor which spread up to her lungs. by then she had to breathe through an oxygen mask & was in "critical condition". the vet took xrays, emergency exams, etc. etc. he told us "the most reasonable" solution was to put bella to sleep. we were all shocked cuz bella never showed any symptoms or anything. she was always active, healthy... or so we thought. the vet says its possible that she was "suffering in silence". it was the worst decision the four of us ever had to make. none of us could watch.
ever seen marley & me? yeah. now i hate that movie.
i feel like i didnt do enough. maybe i shoulda taken her on more walks.. given her more baths.. idk. i know bella is "just a dog".. but still. it hurt. & it scared me. i guess you really dont know what youve got until its gone.
called teresa while she was at school. the news ruined her day too. her, bella & i had some crazy times♥ we talked during her entire lunch break & for 3 more hours afterschool.. she got me to laugh & feel MUCH better. promised to come over later.
so much can change in so little time.

from angels&demons

i really liked this one part:

"Father," Chartrand said, "may I ask you a strange question?"
The camerlengo smiled. "Only if I may give you a strange answer."
Chartrand laughed. "I have asked every priest I know, and I still don't understand."
"What troubles you?" The camerlengo led the way in short, quick strides, his frock kicking out in front of him as he walked. His black, crepe-sole shoes seemed befitting, Chartrand thought, like reflections of the man's essence . . . modern but humble, and showing signs of wear.
Chartrand took a deep breath. "I don't understand this omnipotent-benevolent thing."
The camerlengo smiled. "You've been reading Scripture."
"I try."
"You are confused beacuse the Bible describes God as an omnipotent and benevolent deity."
"Exactly."
"Omnipotent-benevolent simply means that God is all-powerful and well-meaning."
"I understand the concept. It's just . . . there seems to be a contradiction."
"Yes. The contradiction is pain. Man's starvation, war, sickness . . ."
"Exactly!" Chartrand knew the camerlengo would understand. "Terrible things happen in this world. Human tragedy seems like proof that God could not possibly be both all-powerful and well-meaning. If He loves us and has the power to change our situation, He would prevent our pain, wouldn't He?"
The camerlengo frowned. "Would He?"
Chartrand felt uneasy. Had he overstepped his bounds? Was this one of those religious questions you just didn't ask? "Well . . . if God loves us, and He can protect us, He would have to. It seems He is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help."
"Do you have children, Lieutenant?"
Chartrand flushed. "No, signore."
"Imagine you had an eight-year-old son . . . would you love him?"
"Of course."
"Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?"
"Of course."
"Would you let him skateboard?"
Chartrand did a double take. The camerlengo always seemed oddly "in touch" for a clergyman. "Yeah, I guess," Chartrand said. "Sure, I'd let him skateboard, but I'd tell him to be careful."
So as this child's father, you would give him some basic, good advice and then let him go off and make his own mistakes?"
"I wouldn't run behind him and mollycoddle him if that's what you mean."
"But what if he fell and skinned his knee?"
"He would learn to be more careful."
The camerlengo smiled. "So although you have the power to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?"
"Of course. Pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn."
The camerlengo nodded. "Exactly."

finally finished the book! one of my faves♥ passing it on to kanow tmrw. then i might just read it again [:
havent blogged in forevers. not much has changed. school sucks, dont look forward to it like i used to. i really hate that place. if i had it my way, id spend my lunches somewhere quiet with a good book. ha-ha jk? maaaan do i sound depressed! but really, weekends are the only days that make the week even close to being worthwhile.

saturday morning, tennis with kanow, jliu, thomas, adam, & wesley. then bball(: everyone (minus wes) walked to adams. eric cameee & rockband/halo! chilled with the cousins after.
today, woke up early to go hiking with the family[: then tennis with coach! mrs. kanow gave me a free 2 hour facial =D she had all the professional equipment & gave great messages. probably the highlight of my weeek. & now, im off to target..
counting down the days til suuuummmmerrrr.


<3 Jess


09:17 PM
SO i just came back from target. & i hear something about an earthquake? haha whoaaa. didnt feel anything while i was out.

disappointed

i've tried so hard to please you
i've given up many bad habits
but i see you
and it hurts when you do some of the things you're doing.
so what do i do?
what do you want me to do?

-e

family time!

ive pretty much given up on myspace. haha this blog is the only thing i keep updated. twitter is okay too.. but not enough pple use it!

FRIDAY: pooiinntlesss day. our plans always epic fail. i felt sooooo soo bad for ditching my buddy & church with chris =/ kanow, kat, & i got dressed at kats place. ended up hanging at erics, then dolphin bay with kanow, adam, katherine, lanny & friend, and nicole tan. all the girls were in dresses & makeup =_= LOL nicole tan was fun to talk to[= after, walked around the tennis courts with ed, kat, & kanow. the full moon made it all look amazing

SATURDAY (failed to play tennis in the morning): ASB workday. then mothers day bbq with all the fam & some friends(: 30 or so people. teresa & doris came! tiff & i consider them sisters ♥ even my parents count them as they're own children. everyone stayed till like 2 in the morning.. it was hella fun. my wonderful, LOUD, completely insane family. haha we seriously celebrate EVERYTHING. flowers & presents all around. this time the cake was ginormous!

SUNDAY: I love my mom. went to chilis for a late lunch. our second mothers day celebration. idk how we did it.. but the bill came out to be nearly $200 -.- hahaha then went to taipei-LA to pick out the family pictures from my grandpas 90th. took HOURSS. lots of arguing, shouting. typical stuff for my family LMAO planned to finally go get my new racquet. BUT once again, the place was closed.. SO we hit startbucks instead. 7 pounds is a good movie. just got done with most of my hw... gonna go watch narnia 2 =)


<3 Jess

recap.

hahaha well..
friday: just chilled at eric's place had fun and all but i didnt wanna go out with adam, kanow, kat, jess and lanny& friend. i'd rather stay with eric(: anyways yeah that was about it. not that great of a day but w/e.

yesterday: well i had the house to myself (sometimes the sisters) so then sarah came over(: and we just hung out, watched movies, played piano, i cooked for her and then i decided i would take her to that secret spot i promised her i'd take her. so we did and maybe some of you know where it is and i gotta say going there at like 9 is pretty great :] we had a little heart to heart chats and im glad :] i toook her to the mall after like an hour but then her sis wasnt there yet so we chilled in the car. and that had to be the best day i've had in ..... forever haha! anyways i love you sarahnomoto! (:

today: went to grandma's, ate at a restaurant and now waiting for cousins to come over.j

Happy Mothers Day!

-ED

da fuck?

ohkay so if you wanna play that game.
just tell me when you wanna quit
cause you look close to it
and im not gonna use my extra life
to make you play it again.
im out.

when you go bipolar on me
dont expect anything but disappointment.
-E

just the usual

so apparently my entire 6th period (including mrs. hu) thinks all i do is eat & sleep during class =__= LOL hu totally picked on me today, i had no idea what was going on. all i know is everyone was pointing & laughing at me..
i have a lot of blonde moments these days.. haha. like yesterday, i had my tennis skirt on backwards throughout practice. didnt notice til mel & brit pointed out that the back was oddly shorter than the front. & today while selling snacks at the track finals.. some guy asked for a pepsi and when i told him we were out, he looked at me like i was crazy. cuz directly to my left was the fridge, full with at least 15 cans of pepsi.. yeah..
ANYWAYS. highlight of my day was when the hottest guy at the track meet came up to the snack shop & bought a drink(: kanow was totally hyperventilating.. heheh! but even jwang admit that he was hella fine. not to mention TALL.

i heard this joke about cannibals & people stuffing fruits up their ass today.. hahha ill post it up later on if i remember it.


<3 Jess

what the

fuck?
yeah
life is gay at times
so i'll shut up.

-ED

P.S. yeah this was a pointless blog.

Romeo & Juliet: Viii 229-269

FRIAR LAURENCE
229 I will be brief, for my short date of breath
230 Is not so long as is a tedious tale.
231 Romeo, there dead, was husband to that Juliet;
232 And she, there dead, that Romeo's faithful wife.
233 I married them; and their stol'n marriage-day
234 Was Tybalt's doomsday, whose untimely death
235 Banish'd the new-made bridegroom from the city,
236 For whom, and not for Tybalt, Juliet pined.
237 You, to remove that siege of grief from her,
238 Betroth'd and would have married her perforce
239 To County Paris: then comes she to me,
240 And, with wild looks, bid me devise some mean
241 To rid her from this second marriage,
242 Or in my cell there would she kill herself.
243 Then gave I her, so tutor'd by my art,
244 A sleeping potion; which so took effect
245 As I intended, for it wrought on her
246 The form of death: meantime I writ to Romeo,
247 That he should hither come as this dire night,
248 To help to take her from her borrow'd grave,
249 Being the time the potion's force should cease.
250 But he which bore my letter, Friar John,
251 Was stay'd by accident, and yesternight
252 Return'd my letter back. Then all alone
253 At the prefixed hour of her waking,
254 Came I to take her from her kindred's vault;
255 Meaning to keep her closely at my cell,
256 Till I conveniently could send to Romeo:
257 But when I came, some minute ere the time
258 Of her awaking, here untimely lay
259 The noble Paris and true Romeo dead.
260 She wakes; and I entreated her come forth,
261 And bear this work of heaven with patience:
262 But then a noise did scare me from the tomb;
263 And she, too desperate, would not go with me,
264 But, as it seems, did violence on herself.
265 All this I know; and to the marriage
266 Her nurse is privy: and, if aught in this
267 Miscarried by my fault, let my old life
268 Be sacrificed, some hour before his time,
269 Unto the rigour of severest law.

lyd & i have til friday to memorize Act V, Scene iii lines 229-269 from Romeo & Juliet =__= oh yay.

pre-lims was fun! (dont worry, thomas[= you made me proud.) test after test.. after TEST today. studied for none. watched the ball game with whale afterschool. it was BASEBALL, not softball kanow! idiot.. (she was playing tetris the whole time -.-) working snack shop at finals tmrwww. currently reading angels & demons

& ed.. idk how that song relates to anything.. are you trying to say i talk too much?? >=P hahah but thanks<3 youre right. good song. CONGRATS on making finals! ill be there tmrw.. dont complain that i dont watch!


<3 Jess



swine flu
i knew pigs would fly one day.

hahhaha! get it?

SUPPPORT TOMORROW!

WELLL i made finals :]]]]]]
110 HH baby!
i messed up once
time to redeem myself!
thanks for the suppport guys.
i'd really like to see all of you guys there!

and jess.
i dont know what happened
but heres a song for you!
i talk too much-just jack
its a good song.

once again.
support<3

-Ed

ouch.

i dont even know what to say. im sorry that you take everything i say so seriously. im sorry that one of us always gets pissed off at the other. im sorry if my joking words hurt you. im sorry that you never had the guts to say what you felt to my face. im sorry that its so hard for us to be friends. im sorry for the misunderstandings. our up-and-down moods just dont work together. this isnt directed at you, but ive been fed up with a lot of things. & for once, im tired. i really just dont care as much about..anything. i should think before i speak. i had no idea you were feeling the way you felt til now. when bill told me to read your blog. am i really that hard to talk to? that you couldnt just tell me? avoiding things wont help. ouch.

- Jess

& FYI. will is my COUSIN.

preoccupied

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH! & he calls me gay..

okay okay. ill start from the beginning..

FRIDAY: uhmm.. crappy day. you guys know why. tried to hold it in, but failed. first time ever to not get something that ive wanted/worked hard for. (never lost any type of election before either..til now) whoa. yes, it hit me hard. even though i already expected it. ha-ha all the hugs/encouragement only made the tears worse, but in a good way. to the second family: i admit, this time i was the one killing the mood. but you guys stuck by & surprisingly, cheered me up in no time. [= afterschool, walnut friends & sis took me out for a movie. met some pretty cool pple (including my BFF from 1st - 3rd grade's boyfriend! remember jessica sheu?) obsessed was pretty good (best part, beyonce gets into this outrageous cat fight! LOL) got home by 6:30ish. christina took kanow & me to her church(: bbq, worship, kids all around. excited to go back! came home pretty late..10ish?

SATURDAY: woke up to the sound of plumbers in my house -.- went with kanow to check out mothers day gifts. swung by adams.. (julie, eric, theo, chris were there) then off to eds! he wasnt even home yet.. SO went to some japanese noodle house for lunch. spent the rest of the day at eds, just the 3 of us. karoke, battleship, chess, movies, golf..etc, etc. whale & i scored a 92 on If I Were a Boy. no idea how that happened since kanow is even MORE tone-deaf than adam. if thats possible. HAHA 86 on A Whole New World with ed. walked kanow home & this is where the fun begins.. [x mr. kanow answered the door.. looking like some transgender/cross-dresser! he even acted the part.. hitting on ed & everything. LMFAO turns out mrs. kanow had an upcoming exam at her beauty school & was practicing on him. thomas & jenn came by just in time to watch ed get his makeover(: highlight of my weekend! scary thing was, we all agreed that ed looked BETTER with the fake lashes, foundation, etc. HAHA later, went out for dinner at some new restaurant in hacienda. jurassic? got home pretty late once again.

TODAY: planned to wake early, running with ed & kanow. FAILL! hahha eds fault. coach made me run my fat ass off during lessons x_x then, costco & albertsons with the fam. came home with cartfuls of stuff we dont need. haha showered, dressed up, left for UCI. grabbed some jack-in-the-box on the way. (all this eating out is not helping the whole diet thing!) had tickets to some asian concert/choir performance. most of the family was there with flowers & everythangg to support my aunt. fianlly got home around 10:30. started on hw.. & now im here.

some weekend, huh? thanks for keeping me busy, guys. maaaaaannn. ive got some pretty great friends♥

<3 Jess


Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

all part of His plan for me.
acceptance.
faith.

the future

is a scary thing.
help me God.
so today was interesting and if you guys see those pics of me by jess or kanow
DONT LOOK.
please and thank you.
anyways....
i thank my besties for saying that w/e happens in the future you guys will be right behind me supporting me.
thanks.

and im getting kind of sick of feeling this same way
its so routine like
sigh*
life is unfair
life sucks
life is tiring
life is life.

-E

what the

Freak is in virginia???
fckk....

lets spend the rest of my 7 months here
as the best of my entire life.
:]
love you alll
and jesss,
.
.
.
you're gay(:
its okay
you're a winner
when you cook me dinner
forget the past
and make everything else last
:]

good job jesss we still love you!
but you're still gay




oh yeah
my walnut meet marks were pretty satisfying(:
110 HH: 16.14
300 IH: 44.12

watch me own it up at track prelims!
this tuesday
be there or be square?
-ED.

2nd post of the day

i wanted to dedicate an entire post to just my family.. thats the least i can do for them. hhaah uhmm today was an interesting day. ugh. who am i kidding.. today sucked. with a capital S. well at least now, i know what to expect.
afterschool. stayed at the track meet til i got kicked off the field by luna -.- then went to support the last tennis game of the season, like i promised(: hung out with all the JV boys, for once. (oh & tesia) they brought my mood up A LOT. thanksss[= it was fun, going back & forth from track to tennis.. listening to all the guys go on and ON about christine =__= (that one walnut slut-- uh..i mean chick) LMFAO jaykay! dont judge before you get to know. [x the guys nearly swept. goood job! im sick of chex mix now.

<3 Jess

to the family:

thanks for all the encouragement, support, & prayers. will, thanks for bringing me lunch today. i really needed it. just the fact that you stopped by made everything a whole lot better. i love my family. i really do. no matter how much i PMS. i realized today, how good i have it. & yet, so much i take for granted. we all stand behind one another through everything.. even in the midst of all the arguing. i love you guys. i dont say it enough. no other family can ever compare. thank you God. i feel so.. blessed.

<3 Jess

2012 elections tmrw

go VOTE.

<3 Jess

from a text i got today(:

When black people started wearing their pants down low, white people called it saggin. Spell saggin backwards... Sneaky white people! =D

watched untraceable last night[: got back the souplantation money today. phillips said it was "the most we've ever made" from a restaurant fundraiser(: that made my dayy. heeheh thanks again for coming out & supporting the freshies, everyone! elections thursday x_x dont forget ids. during study hall, sabbagh told me i had a B+ in burch. how did that happen?? =/ so now i have to worry about pre-cal & history.. gah. gonna go buy/read When the Emperor was Divine later. heeelllooo to extra credit! no practice the rest of this weeeeek! wooooooooooot.
happy monthiversary to ed & sarah!(=

<3 Jess

weekend fun

FRIDAY afterschool: bracelet-making-party after 6th! (no practice) LOL took down posters/flyers. then hung with kanow at her place. had some deep one-on-one talks. haha pigged out & watched the time between dog and wolf (korean drama). kanow was totally obsessing over the main character guy.. hes uh alright.. pretty cute with his chinky eyes, i guess [x ate out with her fam at souplantation. i go there wayy too often, but it was goood. i swear, they must have put something in the food cuz kanow was high like no other mother.. kinda scary..(: LMFAO got home around 9? & watched i know who killed me with tiff. really weird and freaky.. especially since my house was empty, and tiff fell asleep -_- also watched the perfect stranger. loved it, great ending. finally went to bed at like 3 am.
SATURDAY: watched knocked up. funny, pervy stuff. also saw good luck, chuck. funnny, even PERVIER. i love jess alba =D had like a 2-day movie marathon. missed kanows call, didnt go to eds =[ itsskayy.
TODAY: tennis lesson at noon. my serve has been getting A LOT better. yay. still have a long way to go. tryouts are commiinngg! gahhhh. planned on going to bonding, which i thought was at 2. cindy called & i realized it started at 11 -__- shoulda checked my email. hahaaa well too late now. darnitt. oh wells =/ started another book[= i really would love to go bike riding right now. at the beach. hahaha idk why.

havent seen a post from ed in a loonngg time..


<3 Jess

books

finally went to prc today with the officers. got our stuff done..hurrayyy! hm, ive been reading a lot lately.. & im talking about actual bookksss[= i absolutely lovee it. kanow, chris & i decided to start our own "book club". none of us like reading something assigned; kills the whole exploring the wonders of literature thing. instead, we read whatever the heckk we wantt on our own & recommend/discuss with each other. getting in touch with our inner nerd =D.. HAHAHA

JOKE (something i picked up from a book im reading):
A man asked a genie to make him a billion times smarter than any other man on earth. The genie turned him into a woman.


<3 Jess

the weathers been better.

yessterrdaay. grant surprisingly called the night before. talked for a bit.. he asked me to go to the rowland vs. walnut varsity tennis game. quite a few pple came out to support(: i didnt really get to see much of grant though, since he was a starter =/ itskayy, next time! both JV & varsity lost.. its was close.
toodaay. nothing out of the ordinary. CSTs were a bore. whatever. i really couldnt care less. weather cooled down[= & practice really wasnt half bad. nothing much on my mind besides the usual worries.. elections, senior grams, elections, pre-cal grade, & elections. x_x i feel like a loser too, thomas. but not as big of one as you are! cuz i blog every OTHER day, not EVERYday. hahaha! hm..the weathers been better, maybe things are looking up? fingers crossed.

<3 Jess

good day

first off.. thanks julie & ed for those backpack tags you made us! thanks will, tiff, eddy, and tomtom! for waking at like frikking 4.. just to help post posters/flyers(: lotss of love♥ we planned to get to school early, but uhh i guess everyone else had the same plan.. LOL oh wells. today was decent. everyone was in a good mood. posted up all my posters/flyers in time (even though most fell by the end of 7th =_=) & no hw! wooooot. best of all, tennis practice was cancelled! on second thought.. today was a GREAT day =D
AFTERSCHOOL ed & thomas ditched track and we all went to thomas' place to swim. didnt have my swim suit, so just jumped in with thomas' shirt & julies shorts [x laughed at janices diving, got bullied by taylor (tomtoms lil bro), pizza+smoothies+soda, monkey in the middle with ed & thomas, truth and dare with everyone in the jacuzzi.. funfunfun! (too bad kanow couldnt go in the pool..=/) monkey in the middle was sooo unfair.. both of them totally tackled me.. ed nearly drowned me & it was impossible to get the ball from thomas, whos super ultra buff (it was 2 on 1! -_-) afterwards, the girls raided thomas' closet & jacked all his clothes.. he has nice style! hhahah. a lil sunburn, a few scratches BUT it was worth it[= kanow & i met min[?] for the first time.. walked to his house, pretending to ask for eggs.. ROFL you guys were right though, hes pretty cute.
got home around 8ish, showered, & now im here(: completely exhausted. probably from lack of sleep & everything we did at tomtoms.. going to bed even earlier today. hope the weather cools down.

<3 Jess

thanks

for this anxiety. i guess like i said you're annoyed with me. i knew it all along(: well i'll stop being a bother.

yesterday

17 again with the fambam! =D ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ZAC EFRON♥ okay. ANYWHOO!.. it was huge mess at first cuz the guys refused to buy their tickets -_- got in trouble with multiple AMC workers, who wouldnt stop following us around! in the end me & tomtom paid for two tickets (but itskay cuz adam payed me back[=) afterwards, we ate and played dressed up at forever 21. the girls picked outfits for the guys to try on. i gotta admit, we have GREAT taste.. cuz they looked gooooood(: phillip & ed were a little TOO into it. ROFL started camera whoring and everythangg! heeheh adam was uhh..being his usual homo self. then we got yogurt/ice cream/food while scoping out hot guys/girls. found a group of (not-that-hot) girls and dared the guys to hit on them. ed and phil went up and gave them adams number LOLLL you know you love us adam<3 turns out they were 8th graders.. but we had a good laugh. thanks 50 cent & monkeyboy for staying with me afterwards! & of course i wasnt really gonna let you guys walk home. but sorry about getting yelled at by my aunt on the ride back.. warned you, didnt i? [x
i sleptover my cousins again. stayed up til 1 in the morning baking muffins & cupcakes. (which i am NOT sharing with eric! >=]) shoulda done hw... x_x tennis & lyds later on today. hopefully i have time to buy some sandals. sleeping early for sure today! cuz guess whaaa? break is really over. school tmrw. campaigning starts tmrw. oh joy.

<3 Jess

17 again

was actually okay. chilled with the second family. and yeah... well i got my car back and parents yelled and yelled so i wasnt feeling the greatest afterwards. i guess some people just dont understand why i might be acting different and then stupid stuff happens. im not gonna let it get to me, cause i got enough on my plate. welll i dunno what else to say.. im in debt of about 1400 and i probably cant go out or buy things for awhile so i guess that was my last outing for a while. thanks for the friends always here for me(:

to kanow: thanks bestie(: for being my support.

-Eddie

boredboredbored

still at cousins house(: my sisters friend didnt leave til like 1 in the morning yesterday.. -__- but it was whatever. hes not that bad, actually a funny guy. i was just in a pissy mood [x not his fault LOL school again in 2 days! x_x break was actually pretty decent. it was great not having to see everyone, not having to put up a fake smile everdayy (not that im unhappy or anything.) but yeah [= i was being a lazy bum this entire week! & i still have math and eng hw.. dannggg. didnt sleep til 3 yesterday. must have been that starbucks tea.. thanks again adam for falling asleep on me..! he knocked out at like 2 -.- weaksauce haha itsskayy though. you make weird/funny noises when you sleep. it was uh interesting. movies with the fambam later.. =D

<3 Jess

cousins house!

spending the night here today. my sisters friends came over.. they were fun to hang with. but only one of them is still here. and he is annoying as fuck. i REALLY wish i had something to throw at his face right now -.- GAWDDD. why does she only hang with under-classmen anyway?? ugh whateverrr. ill blockle my frustration out. hahaa
aw. breaks nearly over. =[ 17 again tmrw, zac efron!♥ heeheh(:

<3 Jess

need a laugh?

AHAHHAHAHA! sorry for the nightmares everybody. i just HAD to share that with the world.. =D ily henry! btw, that counts as joke of the day. probably the funniest joke ive posted so farr.

<3 jess

waiting

..for my ride. going to prc today with freshmen officers. & i felt like blogging[=
spring breaks been.. okay, i guess. idk. maybe its just my mood. lol i feel like im even more stressed during break than i was before -.- ommggggg ! asb elections are coming up. i wont lie. im scared/freaked out/nervous.. hhahaa hope for the best?
guess whatt!? i actually stuck to my promise. ive been waking up at 6 everyday to go jogging at the park =D it feels really goooodd! except that my entire body is sore like no other mother. but thats only cuz i havent really ran in MONTHS. i better have lost weight from thiss.. i plan to make the jogging thing routine(:
DUDEEE.. i miss my second fam! =[ havent really hung out with everyone since break started.. what happened to fast & furious guys?? ROFL well thats kinda my fault too.. im lazyyy to the max and after running in the morning, i dont feel like doing much anymore.. hahaa plus im kinda sick of the movies.

got back from prc.. its closed during spring break -_- we went for nothing! whatta time-waster..lmao we fail, guyss.

<3 jess

...

eff. situations ALWAYS suck for me. one way or another.

truth time.

alright time to let it out.

guys, im moving. i have no clue where or when
but i am soon
parents are nagging
and life at home sucks to the point that i'd rather not come home.
yeah life keeps getting in the way.
but w/e
i'll be gone soon
and out of here too
i'm numb.
eff...

-Eddie...

i miss

her. spring break is offf to ssuch a great start =_______=


this goes out to adam...
hope it went welll.

i really really miss you sarah! T.T

-Eddie

FINALLY

..spring break is hereee! first off, THANKS to everyone who came out to souplan on thursday! there was a whole mess of pple there.. seemed like all of RHS showed up.. hahaha anywhoo, heres how my weekend went...
FRIDAY: didnt end up doing anything with the second fam. so me & whale hung at her place. we ate our hearts out..heeheh[x pizza + bagels & sour cream + DIET pepsi + OJ! + fresh homemade pancake-sized cookies + ice cream + pizookies(: = YUM. watched dramas together, but then i had to go dress shopping with my sis for grandpas birthday celebration the next day.
SATURDAY: grandpas 90th birthday bash! of course the entire family was there. we all got dressed up, did hair & makeup, and took professional family portraits. sooo CHAOTIC. took hundreds of shots.. diff poses.. diff backgrounds.. spent 3 hours at the studio.. but i had fun[= the guy working the lights was pretty cute. will agrees. hahah! went out in our nice clothes for dinner, then cousins house for the "after-party"=D
TODAY: watched monsters vs. aliens 3D (stupid. but funny..) & adventureland (depressing, but realistic. good movie!) thanks will. left the movies around 10. when we turned out of the parking lot, we drove onto this dark, empty street. this woman (nia) was getting mugged.. she was being dragged to the middle of the road. the guy runs off when our headlights hit him.. we got out, called the cops, and stayed with nia (she was bawling & completely freaked out) thankfully, she wasnt hurt. lucky that we drove by.. later, 5 police cars, the mall security, and nia's family all pulled up. we stayed until everything was sorted out. since we were witnesses, we talked to the cops, gave them a description of the suspect...etc., etc. CUH-RAZY night.
OH also.. HAPPY BELATED! to adam, matsuki, and joey [?]
sorry i couldnt hang with you guys yesterday adam! =/ i owe you cupcakes<3 sorry i couldnt go to beach either, jenn..
tmrw morning, i plan to wake up around 6 to go jogging. im gonna lose AT LEAST 10 pounds by the end of break. serious this time! just watch.


EASTER JOKES :D
What do you call a bunny with fleas?
BUGS bunny!

How are rabbits like calculators?
They both multiply VERY FAST.

How can you tell which rabbit is the oldest among the group?
look for the gray hares.


<3 Jess

backstab.

how long was this going on guys? how come i was just the brainless dumb stupid guinea pig?
trust is very hard with me now.
so i may not tell people things now.
haha.

-Eddie

just for you, phillip(:

heres a super short post. for phillips sake. hahhaa today was uhh.. fun. MOTORBOAT! =D ROFL my friends are such pervs.

<3 jess

souplantation

made me STUFFED. ughh, i ate wayy too much.. hahaa stomachache =[ hung out at lyds house with LJN2 afterschool.. pigged out & totally did not do our work. LOL then went with the fam & lydia to souplan. saw a whole bunch of pple there..lol its was fun catching up, lyd(: i sure do share a whole lot with that girlie.. even the smallest, most insignificant details about my life! heeheh ♥ going AGAIN tmrw with the second family & best buddy friends (after track meet). grab a flyer, come out & support RHS!
i didnt read blogs yesterday.. & whoa. i missed a lot. you guys all need to just CALM DOWN. take a frikkin chill pill! all of you are making the sitch 1000x worse than it really is -.- dont believe everything you hear. words get twisted unintentionally as gossip spreads. its a lil something called TRUST. as for me, this isnt my fight. ill leave it alone. i do not want to be involved.



JOKE OF THE DAY is backkk! (this ones from kanow)

What kind of mouse walks on two legs?
Mickey Mouse.

What kind of duck walks on two legs?
Donald Duck..?

nooo...ALL DUCKS WALK ON TWO LEGS, stupidddd! =D



<3 jess

cry me a river.

mmhm.

one thing, ima say.
get your facts straight.
if you hear from others then you obviously dont have the time to hear from me.
thats all.

-Eddie.

the notebook

the other night, i had this sudden impulse to re-watch the notebook on my own. it was really strange, but i just couldnt wait. i guess i was in the mood for tears.. to let it all out. (cuz i know i cry everytime i watch it) i decided to push aside everything else.. & really get into the movie. i only watched about half and ended up finishing it just now. ohh mann, maybe i was TOO into it. cuz even though its my 4738193 time watching it.. the tears wouldnt stop! to be honest, i wasnt even just tearing.. it was like bawling out loud. my dad comes by to see whats wrong.. & he LAUGHS =__= being the typical insensitive guy he is.. he couldnt comprehend how its possible for someone to cry over a made-up sappy love story.. LOL.. he calls my mom over & she thinks im pretty ridiculous too -______- i felt soo pathetic cuz the tears were still pouring. i was crying, laughing at myself, and yelling at them.. all at once. what can i say? im a sucker for chick flicks.. LMFAOO but boyy, i feel loads better (despite the headache & puffy eyes) i discovered exactly how to cheer myself up[= someone buy me the DVD!


<3 jess

for the record.. crying during movies is perfectly NORMAL

why

not, take a crazy chance, why not do a crazy dance?

trust.

learn to accept it.

it'll come.

i love you guys though.

=]

-Eddie

stolen from mariels blog

i really just cant sleep atm.. its literally what ive been doing the entire weekend. now im soo awake! so heres my second blog of the day![:

TEN HOW'S:
How did you get one of your scars?
i went rollerskating (the old-school kind with 4 wheels) with some of the neighborhood kids. i was retarded and tripped on a crack.. x_x

How did you spend your last Birthday?
i was SUPPOSED to go to dland.. but stupid rainn!

How are you feeling at this moment?
sore but energized [=

How did your night go last night?
tossed & turned all night..

How did you do in high school?
im off to an okay start, i guess

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
old shirt from aero

How often do you see your best friend?
my best best friend? uhh.. its been way too long. she goes to walnut

How much money did you spend last month?
more than i could afford. now im a broke foool!

How old do you want to be when you get married?
26-28ish

How old will you be at your next birthday?
sweet 16!

NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Paola

What did you do last weekend?
hmm..i really dont remember o_o
ill look back at my blog later..

What is the most important part of your life?
the people in it

What would you rather be doing?
starting spring break

What did you last cry over?
argument with the parentals

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
talking to someone.. like will[:

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
i have an entire listtt..
they have to get along with my family

What are you worried about?
everything thats to come.

What did you have for breakfast?
haha special k cereal

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
ehhh..

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
not really

Have you ever been out of the country?
of course

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yessir. on the daily.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
=/ well i try not to hold grudges

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
noo

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
mhmm!

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
cousinss<33

Who was the last person you texted?
my coach.. LOL

Who was the last person you hungout with?
michael, jon, will, tiff

Who was the last person to call you?
3-way with chris & kanow.
then my service died..

Who did you last hug?
michael, jon, will

Who is the last person who texted you?
coach & kelley i think

Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
will? ROFL

SIX WHERE’S:
Where does your best friend live?
most of them in rowland

Where did you last go?
out for dinner and yogurt

Where did you last hang out?
that one yogurt place..whimsical

Where do you go to school?
RHS

Where is your favorite place to be?
all that matters is who im with

Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
cant say i do

Do you think anyone likes you?
no ideaaa

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
at times

Do you know the muffin man?
heeeheh. i have a friend who has a friend whos friends with the muffin man

Does the future scare you?
hell yes

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
cuz theyre like family

Why did you get a myspace?
dont remember. it was like back in 6th grade

Why did your parents give you the name middle you have?
cuz its my chinese name?

Why are you doing this survey?
i really dont wanna go to bed

THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
EDWARD CULLENS POWER ♥

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
nah. everything happens for a reason

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
someone to keep me company(:

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
...

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
depends who..
HAHA jkjk
only if it was life or death [=

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
im not UNhappy


<3 jess

serious =]

yeah its serious(: i appreciate the friends for the advice and i know what im doing, im sorry my emotions are in a constant flux but i know that i can deal with these things and know what to do. I am sleep deprived but you know what? im happy(; havent done much today but its fine i think just sitting on this chair makes me happy! haha this is gonna go out to all the friends that are down or just not feeling it. i know i havent been much support since you guys are constantly worrying about me, so its my turn right? =] okay

_____, you look quite down.
With your big fat eyes, and your big fat frown.
The world doesn’t have to be so grey!

_____, when you’re life’s a mess,
When you’re feeling blue, always in distress,
I know what can wash that sad away.
All you have to do is;

Put a banana in you’re ear!
(A banana in my ear?)
Put a ripe banana right into your favourite ear.
It’s true (says who?) So true.
Once it’s in your gloom will disappear.
The bad in the world is hard to hear,
When in your ear a banana cheers,
So go and put a banana in your ear!

Put a banana in your ear!
(I’d rather keep my ear clear.)
You will never be happy if you live your life in fear.
It’s true (says you.) so true,
When it’s in the skies are bright and clear.
Oh every day of every year,
The sun shines bright on this big blue sphere,
So go and put a banana in your ear!

just put your own name in the blank(:

-Eddie

boorreedd

dannngit! i coulda gone to world of dance yesterday.. but i was stupid and decided to skip outt >=[ my sis went and came home super late with these posters and really cool tshirts! (she only got me a poster.. no tshirt -_-) then today i found out erin was there.. & how she went backstage and met quest crew! goshh i hatee them.. GAH i shoulda went.

a piece of advice my friend always gives me.. now im passing it down to someone else:
dont let mere infatuation take over your actions & emotions. be smart. you know who you are. i tell you this cuz i care, cuz i worry. if it were me, i trust that youd be telling me the same. just know what youre doing. no regrets, right? its great to see you cheerful again(: but i just wish your mood wouldnt revolve around the relationship so much.. haha im glad you arent afraid to confide in me. youre secrets are safe, whatever you tell me will stay on the deelow[=

man.. i havent been to church in the longest time. i miss it. i need it. sucks cuz it wasnt even my decision to stop going in the first place.


<3 jesslee

sadies

i didnt know the meaning of sore til this morning. x_x
FRIDAY no tennis practice, so got off after 6th period. worked asb snack window.. then will took me, kanow, chris, & jliu to kanows house. he had to drive to my house.. then back to school (chris forgot her id -_-) then to kanows house.. dude, you know i love you![= anyways.. kanows mom (who goes to beauty school for skin care stuff) had some of her pro hair/makeup stylist friends come over to help us get ready. there were 3 girls & this one gay guy [: truong came a bit later. everything took much longer than we planned.. didnt get done til like 6:30ish. -_- thomas & jules met up with us, then phillip drove everyone (minus truong, who left with her date) to adams. when we got there, the mood was sooo DEAD. idk what exactly happened but we missed a lot.. the original plan was to go to guppies or watch fast & furious 4. but that did not happen =[ cuz we were running so late. in the end, i called up will & we went to dolphin LOL we fail at plannnnnninggg! so we get to sadies.. & i really was not in the mood -.- BUT after everyone finally started to dance (kanow included =D) it was FUN. there really was no point for the hair/makeup cuz everything probably melted off along with all the sweat hahah! laterrr, i called up will once again.. and he drove me homee[= uhmm, ill post up sadies pictures some other time.. when im not feeling so exhausted (read the others' blogs for more details about sadies)
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU to williammm! ♥ not just for being my chauffeur all the time. but for being there when i was crying my eyes out on the phone.. asking to talk & help figure things out. its great cuz i have no doubt that youll always be someone i can call anytime, anywhere. godd, I LOVE YOU you really are the brother tiff & i never had. and thanks for lending your camera. oh BTW, all my "lil friends" think youre hella cute [x youre now known as my "hot cousin" ROFL

TODAY woke up ridiculously sore & tired. spent the majority of my day sleeping & hanging out with my fam. sorry i couldnt play tennis thomas! xP my legs so cannot take that right now.. lmao


<3 jess

fill up.

Dedication to Phillip Luu.



yeah i feel better now. these days have sucked a shit load for me. but theres ALWAYS that one person that no matter how much i say im ok he'll slap the bs outta me. phillip, im just gonna thank you for everytime you're there for me, you are that person that'll be there with me when we're old and playing chess in the park. You know that fershure w/e you need i'll try w/e i can do get to you and help you. You defy logic as a best friend and ima thank you cause no ones advice is better than yours. no matter how much i say no homo to everything, its always homo cause we have a good time with it. i can do anything around you and you're always down to do whatever to cheer me up. and this post was just to you.


-Eddie

sick.

and effin tired. you know what, im freaking tired of this bullshit. if its always gonna be like this then i cant take it anymore. I've made my excuses for you but its too much. its always the same right? one gets mad and the other is just dead for the rest of the time. You dont even know the pain i have to deal with at the moment and you're not helping. so im done trying, i dont know what i did wrong but eff it. i dont care. have a good night.

-Eddie

P.S. thanks to people like phillip, kanow, jess, christina, kat, etc. you guys bring out a better side of me.




add-on cause im so bored. my life seems like some kinda horror movie to me, just no frankenstein or no monsters. every little thing that happens is just scaring me in a way. every little thing i find out, just hurts me more and more. haha.. i need to go to church more often, i havent gone in a long time and my life is a mess. im starting to notice that i blow off my friends a lot and putting up this fake front is soo tiring. im messsed up, i know it, you know it. i just wanna runaway and not look back and not feel anything. sorry for this emo post but i dont know why im not getting over this kind of thing. sigh*

happy april!

like everyone else, im beyond glad that march is over and DONE with. first day of april today(: it was a decent day.. not off to a bad start, thank godd! best prank has to be the one we pulled on sabbagh during tennis practice [x LOL did a lot of late minute shopping, didnt get home til like 10 x_x its been a busy week.
whoa. sadies in 2 days. still trying to figure out what exactly imma wear.. tshirts look way cool. too bad theo still hasnt seen them.. hahaa

<3 jess

loooonngg day

seeing eds hair in the morning MADE MY DAY. gave me a freak out attack in the car.. rofl! it was even funnier to see other pples reactions(: when he told me he was gonna cut it, didnt know he meant THAT short.. (i still think he shoulda went with a buzzcut!) its okay, eddy, we still love you the samee..♥ just be sure to wear a bag over your head next time youre out with us [x heeheh! stayed at school til nearly 10 today. did more sadies stuff.. then power 106. had a good time. none of us paid much attention to the game.. & we had no idea who the heck the celeb was.. lmaoo. fooled aroundd & had our own fun. ended up being the last ones to leave school LOL good stuff [= i need to catch up on some precious beauty sleeeep! stayed up til 3 in the morning working on my poetry folder yesterday x_x

- jess

ihatemondays.

weekend flew by.. monday tmrw =[ power 106 on tuesday. sadies on friday. not as excited as i thought id be. we'll seee. haha didnt even start poetry folder. decided not to do it today.. thankgawd for late passes! hm..none of my thoughts are complete; its all fragments LOL guess im THAT tired.

<3 jess

where are you, camera??? baby, come back..
rofl
really though. i "misplaced" it somewhere.. now if i only knew where.

surf city

invitationals was a bitch. waking up sucked, and the race was ok but i was done with everything at 10:30 =__= well ummm.. i come home and chill with royce, thomas, phil, min, chris and sisters. kanow left as i came. umm welll its all same old same old, i dont know why kanow and them bought a shirt for us cause im not going to sadies. hahah dont worry bout it(; its fine.
tired for today, i dont know what to write.

-eddie

:]

today is day one of an official relationship(: its been like one hour and im loving every hour of it. so it looks like when you do hit rock bottom you definitely do go up cause my dad will help pay for the car and i think everything is suddenly getting better. for everyone out there just be patient like i was and you'll see the improvement. well i have nicole tan's plugs on and my ears are hurting :[ hahaha ummm lemme think, i got into the saturday meet, good and bad. :]
well i wanna thank all the besties for supporting me and thanks eric and adam for being at my house with me. they are probably my good luck charm for today(:
love you guys(: <3
and my GIRLFRIEND(:

-Eddie

i hate this part right here.

this one is right now for the bestie. eff my problems, i can deal with it but you were always stronger than me so i know this is something you can deal with and we're all here for you. If things arent right for you at times like this it doesnt mean you dont have anything because it shows you have everything, we're all here to support you and if something is bothering you that much you dont need it. i dont want to see no more tears mmkay? cause i'd rather be laughing with you than crying with you(;

and the other bestie. you beast(: you always know what you're doing and i dont have to worry cause you know whats up and you know how to deal with it(: and you always know that we're all here for you and that you dont have to put up a fake happy front cause we know you way more than that(: "blood is thicker than water" we're a family and no one gets in the way of that(: keep it up beast!

and the monkey bestie(: we'll go jump that wilson girl fosho cause no one just jacks yo sadies date like that >:] heheh and shhh... phillip doesnt have to know about it! and this goes out for you too, no matter whats up we're always here for you so dont worry, i got yo back<3

yep, so i think ima start taking count of people that hate me and i think im at 6 now. :] hehe
its all good though, my problems are pushed to the side(;

-Eddie

new leaf

"God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13

this post goes out to one of the besties. i know it feels like everythings wrong, life sucks. but just know that God would never give you something that you couldnt handle. He will always provide a way out, even in the most hopeless situations. i dont have a lot to say cuz the things we go through together cannot be put into words. we bicker nonstop like an old married couple..(whale & giraffe..what an odd pair!) but we're both over it in no time at all haha(: just know this: ill be right by your side, whenever. wherever.

to everyone else: the pessimism stops here. this is getting ridiculous. we're all to blame, imcluding me. starting from now, i wont drag you guys down with my shitty mood. ill be my old self again.. the fun, perky, loud me! [= carefree, right?


<3 jess


P.S. ed, you know we're not going anywhere without you. dont argue.

Forget it.

you guys, just cause things dont fall into place for me dont mean anything, you guys are all going to sadies, gonna have fun and dont worry. my problems are for me to handle. sorry you gotta deal with this side of me but i need time to think. i still love you guys. so have fun.

-Eddie

rap battle? LOL

ohmytheo (9:58:27 PM): my name is young jeezy
ohmytheo (9:58:29 PM): i aint cheezy
ohmytheo (9:58:38 PM): jess if ma ho
ohmytheo (9:58:42 PM): so i say fa sho

hurrayitsJESSica (10:02:32 PM):
his name is theo
hes a big WEIRDO
says he aint cheezy
but all his rhymes make me..uh sneezy.

ohmytheo (10:06:31 PM): jess if your name
ohmytheo (10:06:37 PM): being theo's ho is your game
ohmytheo (10:06:40 PM): ed wishes he had you
ohmytheo (10:06:44 PM): too bad you're not his boo

hurrayitsJESSica (10:10:29 PM):
your rhymes cant compete with mine
dont deny that i am fine
no need to hate
i know im great

ohmytheo (10:11:27 PM): i bustin this beat
ohmytheo (10:11:32 PM): dont get blown out of your seat
ohmytheo (10:11:54 PM): you are my ho
ohmytheo (10:12:00 PM): thats why you'll never go

hurrayitsJESSica (10:14:25 PM): PSHH
hurrayitsJESSica (10:14:27 PM):
i aint yo ho
thats fasho
dont be mistakin'
i aint yours for the takin'

ohmytheo (10:20:34 PM): dont be deceived
ohmytheo (10:20:37 PM): this is my creed
ohmytheo (10:20:41 PM): you asked me to sadies
ohmytheo (10:20:50 PM): thats why you're one of ma ladies

hurrayitsJESSica (10:28:39 PM):
your heads too big for your own good
take my advice, you really should
just admit defeat
you know you cant take the heat
dont be blue
no one can do like i do(:

ohmytheo (10:32:19 PM): i have a big head because im smart
ohmytheo (10:32:28 PM): unlike you, you're just a tart
ohmytheo (10:32:37 PM): so please stop trying to make these rhymes
ohmytheo (10:32:45 PM): cause none of yours are like mine

hurrayitsJESSica (10:37:13 PM): man..
hurrayitsJESSica (10:37:41 PM):
im getting tired of this rap,
i totally owned the half-jap
but no need for an excuse.
how about a truce?


i won btw! =D
& theos still gay.

(^that rhymed..HAHA)

<3 jesslee

step by step

you know the saying, Sunshine always comes after the rain..? to me, it doesnt feel that way. its nonstop rain.. sometimes just sprinkling. other times, its a huge storm. but you just gotta get used to it. find your own happiness amidst all the gloom. & learn to love the rain.
"Trust is when doubt doesn't exist." after thinking about it, thats not true either. no matter what, there will always be uncertainty.. insecurity. but trust is when you can look past the existing doubt. because you have faith that, somehow, everything will work out.. even if not in the way you imagined.

the whole sadies problem..sucks =/ we were all so excited about getting our dates & everything planned out. but hm.. dont know whats gonna happen now. i really wanted EVERYONE to be there! seems like half of us wont make it..GAH we'll see.


Yo mama so fat people jog around her for exercise.
Yo mama so stupid that she puts lipstick on her head just to make-up her mind.
Yo mama so short you can see her feet on her drivers license photo!
Yo mama so poor I went through her front door and tripped over the back fence.
Yo mama so old the fire department is on standby when you light her birthday cake.

these are so L-A-M-E! =D


<3 jess

WHOA.

okay, so i dont read blogs for one day, and i find out a lot of things kinda late x[

welll lemme try to umm... catch up.
today, it was a blah blah blah boring day.
helped christina w/ her sadies plan.
and i thought to myself, im like the only one who hasnt been asked :[ and then while running laps
i see phillip calling me and boom, i get roses handed to me along with a big poster and cookies(:
and theres sarah looking mighty fine and asked me... i of course said yes(:


okie, heres to the besties, thanks for looking out for me all the time. i really really appreciate you guys and no matter what happens that i'll always be here for you guys. im strong guys, dont you worry bout me, i'll worry about YOU guys >:] so bestfriends, sistas(okay that was soo gay), home slices(: thanks<3

this one goes out to mah girl(: okay sarah! im always here for you and you know i love you beyond measure, nothing and no one can get in the way of that, and i apologize. i've been pretty stupid, i know that, but for me i know i gotta keep trying cause i really really love spending time with you. its my favorite part of my days, weeks, months. :] so keep your head up high and know im always here for you.

this one goes out to a certain friend who is getting too much shit right now. guys lets be nice now! it isnt his fault, and hes always here for me too when things get rough the first thing he asks is " are you ok?" so please just dont get that urge to beat him up or something(: so thanks bud.

hmm another shout out, to phillip: eff you! for not giving me a ride =] jkay
i<3you

hahah
today was an okay day only made good by the certain people(;

-Eddie